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 Di bumi gersang Mina, jutaan manusia bergerak seperti sungai putih yang hidup. Mereka datang bukan sekadar berjalan, tetapi membawa kisah Nabi, sejarah pengorbanan, dan perjalanan jiwa yang telah berusia ribuan tahun. Di sinilah bermulanya satu babak penting dalam ibadah Haji — perjalanan yang penuh simbol, emosi, dan makna. Segalanya memuncak apabila para jemaah berdiri di Padang Arafah pada hari Wuquf. Arafah sering digelar “padang pertemuan manusia dengan dirinya sendiri.” Menariknya, ramai ulama menyebut bahawa di sinilah Nabi Adam dan Hawa dipertemukan semula selepas diturunkan ke bumi. Sebab itu nama “Arafah” dikaitkan dengan perkataan ta‘aruf — saling mengenali. Pada hari itu, tiada beza antara raja atau rakyat biasa; semua memakai ihram putih yang sama, berdiri di bawah langit yang sama, memohon keampunan dengan air mata yang sama. Selepas matahari terbenam, lautan manusia bergerak menuju Muzdalifah. Di sini, para jemaah mengutip batu-batu kecil. Batu itu nampak biasa, tet...

 When I shower I feel a deep sense of meditation most likely because there is a continuous flow of attention to each of my movements be it mental kinetic or ruminative in any sense that this whole into a very focus zone due to the hum of the heater or the continuous flow of water trickling. Every bit of intention and energy flows from my mind to each extremity and they simmer and mature with the act of repetition with each scrub with each rotation with each rub of my hands my fingers to the census on my skin to the actions made to clean not just the body but my surroundings my foot squeezing a brush scoring the tiles my other foot pressing down on a squeegee wiping down walls precariously balanced on one leg as my hands are preoccupied with keeping the flow and jet of water centered on the next area I am cleaning not just my body but my mind my headspace and my perturbed soul washing it out with white noise whilst in the act of something productive and repetitious which then causes...

During the second day of the Klang River Festival—September 27th, I think, a Saturday in 2025. Do you remember that day? I remember the barely open eyes, and the many scars. I had never seen so many scars on a face before. It was a scorching afternoon, just after 4 p.m., but still during those moments when heatwaves rise off the asphalt—if not for the sudden rain… what do you call it, the kind that comes and goes abruptly in urban areas? A cloudburst. If not for the cloudburst that had kissed the ground just a few hours earlier. I was cycling south from the Living Room Under (NPE bridge) when a slight movement brought me to a screeching halt. I looked down at the weeds, and I felt my eyes widen. Bleeding into the foliage—quite literally—was the largest iguana I had ever seen in my life (outside of a zoo). I saw that it struggled to take a breath. It stayed still, seemingly meshed against the wire fence. Growing to this size is not simple for its species—surviving youth through instinct...

 Colour control. It's not that i cause bleeding to hurt you and control you. It's the soecifict colour red.

 Let's try intelligence before we try artificial intelligence 

  How many of you have heard the joke about photographers “shooting” and “framing” people? Shooting and framing—these words coil with an excitable vehemence in my mouth whenever I tell the joke, yet I have only recently realized the baggage they carry. A cold, detached, calculated act of violence. Intention. You need to aim before you shoot. When someone points a gun and fires to kill, a living, breathing being filled with potential is reduced to a sack of meat. Point a camera at someone, and you aim to capture an essence you see in your mind. Then you shoot to capture, and all that remains of that particular moment of life is reduced to an object. I also like to think that this is why people in earlier times readily believed legends claiming that taking a photograph meant taking an ornate piece—or even the entirety—of the soul. Photography is frequently described as an act of violence because it is inherently invasive, transforming subjects into objects, and exercising power by ca...