2008

 I feel so detatched

Not in the sense where im disconnected from society, but in the sense where a human brain cannot comprehend the actual purpose or questions that are meant to be asked.

And yet,  I know that there is a quest in the question, and i thirst for it to be answered...but it rarely slights,  and it doesn't help, other than just show the irregularity of the function the stifling question presents itself,  in a factor that couldn't be encrypted in the chemistry of the human self.  Other senses and personalities defined as human may be a plus blessing, but they ultimately distract oneself from the presence of the ultimate question. Not precisely who I am,  but more of a loosely based set of what I'm here for and why I'm in this form, revealing the "existential crisis" people feel,  but somehow it feels larger, for existentialism may be a product of human cognition, but this question cannot be comprehended and is seldom properly digested by those who think it. 

I've asked and surveyed,. No one sees the similarity.  I would associate it with how pride results in this realisation\how narcissism proves itself through this self_aware uniqueness...but one can never be sure.

This is.the first time ...in literally 10 years after the discovery...that Ive put it in words. Does it accomplish anything? I do not know. Another might interpret it the same way, and feel my thoughts to be a false mirror to test their uniqueness. I do not know. The question never reveals. One does not even know where to begin, as what one finds cannot be put into mental cognition. Try to think outside THAT box.