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晚饭

 在餐桌吃着晚饭，家人谈起了我的未来, 也提起了过去, 述说了我的中学生涯

说着说着, 我发现我非常感慨, 当时他们选择了送我去独中. 

语言能力差的我, 当初有抗议行为。时间久了, 脑子清醒, 突然发觉华教有多么的重要

我是华人. 我不需模仿西方口腔语调. 我不稀罕潮流的批评

我是华人. 我对华教的毅力, 我对文化的坚持, 不受外者的负面影响

我是华人. 我不能忘本.

我目睹同龄同族的朋友否认            甚至嘲笑自己的民族, 吐槽自己的文化

完全无视历史悠久, 根本没把文化丰厚的母语放在眼里

他们不是故意, 他们只是不太懂, 他们选择的是无知

毕竟殖民期不小心被掺杂了信念. 时间在指缝间 流失. 流失. 流失而世界掌控了思想

每一次想起这景象, 我流泪, 我心碎, 我真的看不下高昂在上的人对文化没落时的愚昧

也许在他们心里有遗憾, 藏悔意. 

我不了解我为何担心那么广大, 那么抽象的东西. 我不明白我为什么会那么的在意

我抬起头,听妈妈说: 放在心上的东西自然   就会被在意

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