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Intrusive thoughts of a troubled dog

 


18/12/22

Morning. strangled mom from behind the car seat. Snapped her neck. caused a car collision.


Smashing the car with my computer while waiting for the key to open the door. Hurry up.


29/12/22

Swinging and throwing her 18 yo cat in its blanket up the wall.


27/1/23

Knife through the heart. Felt resistance against ribcage and muscles, but relatively smooth. 

Felt vein protrusions, butcher knife, Choppinglpppaa w0£9*9"/*the aa the left hand, cutting unclean, bones shattered instead 


30/1/23

Jump and Hang off the railing on J2 3rd floor. Feel fingers slipping over the impossibly smooth metal.


11/4/23

Knee-Breaking electronics, iPad crunching, fibres spiking through skin. Tearing screens apart with strengthened bionics, the tug has a consistency of tough fabric. 


12/4/23

In the Library. Cocking a pistol in my last hand with my right thumb and forefinger, blowing up with adrenaline while punching the nozzle up below my jaw and by the temple.


23/5/23

Cartilage snaps as my fist crunches mom's nose bridge into its cavity.


8/11/23

There's a way to easily snap your pinkie. Or any finger, in fact. I'm still trying to remember what that position was in. (Found it: laced under the middle finger, lateral pinkie.)


11/12/23*

Neglect Twisting the neck 512 degrees, hold him off the building, watch him clawing desperately, give a brief respite, before letting go, just ever so gently until he lands on his feet, escaping for a millisecond before gravity takes over. Liquefied insides come first. The thump sounds delayed. 

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