I am angry at myself I should be very good at buttering them up [06/09, 00:52] Faith: But also i feel horrible for doing things I don't believe in [06/09, 00:52] Faith: So i cannot pretend anymore [06/09, 00:54] Faith: I think he is just thinking that I will go to hell [06/09, 00:54] Faith: And he will treat me like that also because i’m sure he is hurting too, when he hurts me But this is differences in belief I know But it is also because of his belief that he wants to warn me and be very stern [Because he thinks I am in danger [06/09, 00:55] Faith: I know it'll be like this because I was like this too [06/09, 00:56] Faith: I understand him completely [06/09, 00:56] Faith: I had the feelings also [06/09, 00:57] Faith: I am still crying [06/09, 00:57] Faith: i feel so bad [06/09, 00:58] Faith: For breaking my family apart [06/09, 00:58] Faith: I really am the black [06/09, 00:58] Faith: I want my parents to love me so much [06/09, 00:58] Faith: But I make them feel so disgu...